We're not the same, dear, as we used to be.

... "The seasons have changed and so have we."

So I was just laying in bed thinking about things, as I so commonly do when the sky is dark and my mind is allowed to wander, and it really hit me all of a sudden how things have changed so much from the beginning of the year. Namely the people I surround myself with have changed a lot.

Change. It happens, you can either go with it or run from it. Lately I've just noticed that I'm not as close with certain people as I used to be. It's life, but it doesn't mean I have to like it. I'm really glad for the friends I can go months without seeing, but when we are able to hang out, it's like nothing ever changed. With others, you just sit there in silence, not saying anything, because you both realize that you share nothing in common with each other anymore; that you've been growing apart. "Growing apart" I hate that phrase. Everyone has a time in your life, and sometimes that time runs out a little early.

Cleaning up. What I've been doing lately. Not cleaning up as in tidying a room- I mean cleaning up my life. I've come to the conclusion that I tend to keep people in my life way longer than I should, and I don't want to do that anymore. I'm not trying to sound mean, but sometimes I need to do things for me. There's been too many people who would always just bring me down whenever I would talk to them, and I knew it, but I just went with it. Not anymore. Over the weekend I cleaned out my phone, and when I clean out my phone, if I delete the whole thread of messages between me and a certain person, that's how I know I'm leaving everything in the past and I'm starting new. I also cleared out some pictures and deleted numbers. It was a pretty successful phone cleaning.

I'm going to start distancing myself from all the negative, close-minded, and judgmental people in my life so I can make room for those who are positive and accepting. Only good vibes from here on out. So sorry if I don't talk to certain people as much lately, chances are you're one of the ones I'm distancing myself from.

Have a beautiful night. Be free. Open your mind.