These are the days that must happen to you.

Well hello, beautiful creatures! I feel like it's been so long since I've actually taken the time to sit down and write something serious. I figured that today was as good a day as any. I've been way too in my feeling today and I need an outlet. Honestly, I just haven't been feeling today at all. Too much drama earlier. Unexpected, unnecessary drama. I wish I could just go back and erase the whole afternoon. I just didn't feel like myself today at all.

I don't know why I've been feeling so down lately, but I have been, and I'm not a fan of this feeling. I know I just need to snap out of it, but I don't know... I can't. There are these little thing called "over thinking" and "over analyzing" and I've been doing a real good job of it. I've allowed myself to let thoughts and memories slip in my mind that have no business being there. I'm just stuck in a never ending cycle of wishing things are different, but knowing they're not going to be. I need some good vibes in my life right now, so someone send some to me. Thanks.

I've been on a subconscious search lately for something that has meaning; so far, I've only hit dead ends. I think I've just been feeling tied down and bored with my surroundings. I need change. I desire change. A change of surroundings would be nice. New people, new thoughts, new scenery. Something has got to give, because this isn't cutting it.

And here starts the complaining, but it's okay, cause today is not my day and I can complain every once in a while, alright. I hate how I'm not really friends with some people now. I'm not a fan of where I work. I don't like feeling like nothing is ever going to change. I hate when things aren't consistent. I hate when people aren't consistent. I hate how I always seem to make the wrong choice. I hate disappointing people. I don't like where I am. I hate when people are flaky. I don't like the feeling when you know that you and someone else are growing apart. I hate having fights with people that I love. And... I hate that I was able to come up with so many things that I hate.

Okay, well I do want to write more, but I have work early and I'm really tired. So this is it for now.

Have lovely dreams.